An open letter to the man I loved for 9 years!

Hey you!

I know this is something that isn't new to you since you knew me very well. You were used to getting a lot of sweet thoughts from me, month to month; year to year and this hasn't changed until now (as you can see, I'm writing you a new one). But this is not going to be another love letter, it's going to be another way around.

We've been together for 9 years, imagine that! You have been by far the greatest love I've ever had and I always thought that you were the one! I even have your name tattooed on my body and you tattooed mine too. We were "The Bryan and Anna Inseparable through whatever" but everything changed when you chose to break my heart last year. You cheated on me a lot of times but this one was so different, I was and still very damaged until this very day, I couldn't move on. I remembered how I cried every day for you and how you chose to be with her instead of me, how you were so concerned about her and wanted to be with her while I was on my knees begging for you to stay. It was very heartbreaking, very damaging and hurtful. A lot of people hated you for it, they were hurt by the damage you have caused me but I was the only one who loved you and stayed beside you despite all the pain.

Yes, I got you back but people still think that you're too bad for me but I kept fighting for you. Even my family despised you because they didn't like what you've done to me but I chose to turn my back on them and kept on explaining myself what happened although some of them were just lame excused to cover you up.

I saved you. You think I didn't notice that you were no longer socializing with your friends? Did you think that I didn't notice that you were hiding from all of them because you were ashamed that you have been with the wrong woman whom you think was perfect? Because you made a mistake of falling for a person who turned out to be bad for you? I saved you in the thought of straightening things up with them so they would change their perspective towards you. I was so busy saving you that I didn't think of saving myself. That everytime I was saving you, I was also drowning with sadness and heartbreak because it brings up memories yet I did all that because I love you but you never saved me, you were just saving yourself in denial.

You always said you never loved her, that it is I you love but it never felt that way when you were still with her. Every time I brought things up a little bit and try to put it on a joke, you become so angry and break up with me, every time, every fucking time! But that didn't make me wanna leave you; instead, I tried to heal for myself, I even agreed to take a vacation to Norway for the first time but it wasn't any help at all. It felt very traumatic!

I thought to myself that I was beginning to be okay but I know to myself that I will never be, cause you never helped me anyway. You ignored every conversation I was trying to make, you always think I was the wrong one but you were always wrong. I never wanted this, you made me this! You made me think that I am still replaceable after all the things I have given and sacrificed for you. You made me what I am right now and this isn't the first time you made me feel this way yet despite those I loved every inch of you but I never got anything in return. It's like you just loved me because I love you!

Today we had a fight about this again and you said that I couldn't move on. Did you ever ask me why? Now you know why. If not, then it's up to you.

For 9 years, I have given everything to you, I have sacrificed everything for you, begged for you, loved you and yet this, every time we fight because of your very own mistake you cannot even stand to be with me again? How many times should you break my heart? I understand that you never asked for all the things I have given you but that's the only reason why we were at our 9th year together.

Maybe you're right, it's time to part our ways. It's what you wanted after all. I'm so sorry for loving you this long. I could have just given you your freedom a long time ago. I'm so sorry for locking you up for so long in my own little world. You deserve so much better than the love I have given you.

Paalam Mahal.

Anna

Netflix Original Series: YOU!

I'm so satisfied with this series!
I can't find words to describe it. It's suspense, jaw breaking, heart melting series and trust me, the girl named Beck is so pretty! They look good together! 

But even thou I loved it, it made me stopped watching it on the 10th episode probably because I wanted them to end up together. If only Joe wasn't a psychopath it could've been so great. But hey, that's what makes it beautiful. All the things he did was so for love and a lot of people are experiencing these kinds of things nowadays. 

This series is a must watch, hoping for more. 

The Depp fantasies of mine !! :D

If I die today,

Tell Johnny Depp I loved him !!

Like I super love him ! I love him so much !!!!!!

isn't he beautiful ?? ughhh!!!